What a weird day!

Today's my sis' convocation. At the same time i've already arranged to have a dinner with frens to celebrate our Godma's birthday. Yes, CLASH! But, just dunno wat's in tht head of mine. I still wanted to attend both events. Maybe it's my bad habit again, wanting to complete many things within a short period of time.

In the end, things got worse. I was very grouchy the whole day. Well, i admit my temper is not vey good. Shd learn to control. I left earlier to meet my frens. It's not tht i really want to meet or see or eat with them. I just want to pass the present to my Godma when everyone's ard so they can write their wishes too.

I didn do a good job today. I made my parents angry. I quarrelled with my whole family. I was disrespectful to my parents in NTU during the commencement. Naturally, i got scolding from them too. Regretted now, shouldn't have lost my temper. My dad said i changed eversince i converted to be a christian. But he didn't know tht the truth is i changed long ago when he committed tht mistake. Didn say it out right in his face cos i couldn't get the chance. In retrospect, it's a good thing i didn throw those words out.

I don't like myself. Cos i can't control my emotions esp when it comes to facing family members. I dun wan to hurt them, but the things i did just upset them. I wanted to patch things up yet it turned out tht i've worsen it. It's my fault but i hav the ability to make them apologise to me. And guess what. I dun accept their apologies. I'm a weird person. I dun act according to my feelings. I'm so mean to my family. Maybe i shd just hide alone in a cave.