Emo...

Time flew. Many things happened. Went running just now. But, i walked more than ran. While walking, i was thinking. I've thought a lot. About the past, present and future. Honestly, i'm tired. I thought of the happy times shared with all my frens and also the times i've been sad and heart-broken. Well, i would say it's not really an easy path. Wosh, I must give myself a pat on my shoulder.

I had dinner in a cafe just now. It has changed. The furniture arrangement as well as the menu. I prefer the way it used to be. The memories shared there was still fresh in my mind. It's been a long time and I thought i had forgotten them. It was a pity that i didn't cherish the past. So now, i've got only the memories left. Memories that were sweet yet brought tears to my eyes.

Was the run good? Maybe it has become a habit. Whenever i feel down, i just feel like running, as though i'm running away from those things that have been on my mind. While i was running, the question "What is it that you feel like doing the most now?" suddenly popped into my mind. And without hestitation, my answer was, go on a holiday, somewhere, anywhere far, where nobody knows me, nobody can contact me. I've even thought of moving out, out of east.

I'm somehow sicked and tired of my everyday routine. It seems that everything has a pattern. I can almost predict what's going to happen next. The things i do, the places i go, the faces i see are all the same, same, same. I want something new, neW, NEW! It seemed that my thoughts are very distorted today. Anyway, i just want to enjoy life, so tht i'll have no regrets. If i'm going to die tomorrow morning, tonight, i'll go for a spin, even if it's just around Singapore.